The Best Laid Plans

Where did they go? Its been a long five years since I’ve lost a lot.

I have been doing everything else trying to get back to that life by taking on the odd job here and there and doing things I am not interested in.

I’ve been wandering around way too long and I haven’t the first damn clue as to what I am supposed to do.

My plans and goals and dreams have gone away and I don’t know how to get them back.

I want to return to making a self-sufficient life. One that can support my family. I want them to be proud of me. 

I want to be proud of myself.